Murmurings of Issac

Back In Singapore and New Year New hopes

2009-12-31T19:11:00.002+08:00

It has been almost a month since I blogged. I am finally back from traveling around asia. It was good. Vietnam is beautiful and I want to go and visit it again. It was a rush for us to finish the whole of Vietnam in 11 days. Halong Bay was nice, so was Tam Coc and other places.....

Next Thailand, I had went to Bangkok for numerous times and so nothing was that special. Food was nice and so was the friends that I met up there. I had a spiritual moment there too.

After that it was taiwan......it was still so ever beautiful. I just love taiwan. Although i had visited most of the places that I went to the last time but i just never get bored of it. I went to Kaoshiung and kenting this time round also. Kenting is also magical, the scenery is simply magnificent.

Next up was Bintan, This is a very tiring trip but I had great fun with the kids. I think it is great to see all of them to enjoy themselves in the camp. Most of them really came out of their shells. Let's hope that it will do them a whole lots of good.

Pictures are on my Facebook......

New Year was nearing in around 4 hrs more.....Let me reflect on the past year.....I think I did well for the past year. I had a great class and students which make working pleasant. Social life was still lacking i think but I think I more than make it up with my traveling.

New Year will come with new hopes and I hope that all will be well next year, especially for all my students that having major exams in 2010.......

Happy New Year in advance.....

Till then...take care and cya ard.....

Travelling Bug is Here

2009-11-25T05:56:00.000+08:00

In a few hours, I will be embarking on my traveling around Asia. I cannot wait for it to happen. i need the holiday, just to walk around and feel the other countries. I will be trying to write a travelogue...so stay tuned.

Till then cya...

Holidays!!

2009-11-02T00:28:00.002+08:00

Holidays are here and 3 more weeks, I will not be in Singapore for quite a long long time. I really cannot wait for it to come.

Till then..take care and cya

It is never nice deciding people's future

2009-10-23T21:49:00.002+08:00

This is the first time that I feel the power but the power is scary and I wish I am never in that position. It is never an easy job to decide and tell someone about the results. When I saw them crying, it pains me a lot but I still have to toughen and understands the fact that they indeed have to learn. What I can do is to simply hope that they really learn and move on.

If they ever do that, they will definitely succeed. And for me, I have tried my best and I can oni hope for the best. But you all are my students, once my students, always my students.....

Till then, take care and cya ard.

The End Is Near!!!

2009-10-12T05:13:00.002+08:00

It has been almost a month since I post.....Am I busy? Not really.....In fact, my life is slowing down...due to the EOY exams and all other things which means that holiday is coming....I just cannot wait for it to come..haha....This year I will be traveling to 3 countries....Vietnam, Thailand and Taiwan....I will be going to Bintan with my form class....This means that I will not be in Singapore for most of the time..

Anyway, I have found motivation to do something.....3 months later will reveal the results...

till then cya and take care....

Happy Birthday to me!!!

2009-09-15T23:45:00.004+08:00

Around 15 more minutes will mark my 27th year living in this world...Let me think about the past 27th years....I grew up in a happy family of my parents and a sister...Life was tough when we were young and my parents was a typical strict Chinese family, which explains the full onslaught of canes after canes...But they never short changed me and tried to provide the best for me. I am thankful for having such great parents....Today when I reached home after celebrating my birthday with my dear colleagues cum super duper good friends, I am touched....I saw an ang pao on my table...a simple four words...sheng re quai le...It was from my mum...I just do not know why..It seems especially sweet this year...I have been neglecting them this 2 years and the time that we are able to talk are getting lesser and lesser...Haizz...But I still love you all...

My sister and I have a turbulent relationship since young...we are never close and may never be. I tried forgetting the past but it seems so difficult...maybe that is one thing that i may never be able to conquer.

I am seriously blessed to be surrounded with wonderful friends all my life and they are continuing to come into my life...people who love and care for me....Be there when i needed them the most...I had a great celebration on sat with a great bunch of friends..we thoroughly enjoyed ourself. Today, my dear colleagues cum good friends celebrated for me again...I love the food and presents...Thanks a lot....Tommorrow, i will have another celebration with my buddies...There is a chinese saying that says that we do not need too many friends, just a few good ones...I am truly blessed to have a lot of good friends that will care and support me even though i may not be good enough for them...

And ya, I forget to add that I have a bunch of fantastic students that stayed up till 12 and wished me happy birthday...thank you so much...and ya I am touched although I hope that you all sleep early...

Reflecting back these 27 years, I think I am more than satisfied with what I have. Although there are definitely up and down in my life but with such good family and friends, what else can I ask for? I am happy....

Therefore, Happy birthday to me.......

Wondering??

2009-09-14T16:32:00.002+08:00

Two more days...one year older....three years to hit the big three....how times flies.....

I found out that after the age of 25, every year, a few days before my birthday, i will fall into depression....

This year is not much of a difference. I question myself why am i working so hard for? Suddenly i felt that I have no aim in life...nothing for me to work n fight for....

I promise myself...I will not be so punishing on myself from next year onwards..will learn to enjoy life even more...

Too Hopeful

2009-08-30T02:56:00.000+08:00

Actually I think I am a hopeless romantic in reality...trying to romanticize everything....

But actually everything are not meant to be...

Tired!!!!

2009-08-27T08:24:00.000+08:00

Let me see....I have been a teacher for a yr plus. What have I gotten? Darker eye circles, fatter and a life that is so mundane that even my friends wonder how can I last?

I am getting older by the day and my strength is dwindling by the day. Day by day, I dragged myself up from the bed to come to school....to face the daily diet of rascals and babies...to find out that some have more problems than what it seems. I just wondered how I am going last through the next 1 yr plus before my bond is up. People ask me whether am i staying in the teaching profession? I do not know...For now, I just feel like sleeping and running away from everything.

Just wondering....

2009-08-23T23:53:00.002+08:00

It is really funny when you think that you are in control of something, yet it spirals out of control. Nothing seems to be working in your way and whatever you try to do, it seems to fail. It is good to put myself in other's position to think about how they will feel but sometimes it will get kind of annoying when people do not reciprocate and still think that you are harming them. I think it is time to act. If giving chances does not help, I think it is time to learn the hard way.

I think I really need a holiday, to rejuvenate and to re-prioritise everything in my life. I am disappointed and down, nobody knows and nobody understands how much I have tried. I think I have failed as a friend, colleague and teacher. Sorry for not being there when you all needed me. Sorry for not being a good teacher.

I think I need a spark in life. Or should I say I need a life. I think I need someone in my life for me to love, miss and think about. I am losing motivation to push myself further. What happens in recent weeks, irregardless whether it is work, friends or whatever....it seems to go the other way. Nothing seems to work and nothing seems to be going my way.

The analysis....I need my break......

Whatever!!

2009-08-13T08:55:00.000+08:00

You can hate me forever...I dun mind but as long as you bcome better. You will understand in the future.

Myyyyyyyyyyyy Looooonnnnnnnnnnnggggggggg WWWWWeeeeeeeeeekkkkkeeeeeennnnnnnnddddddddd!!!!

2009-08-11T14:40:00.000+08:00

How I wish my long weekend is as long as my title. Hello everyone, Hope everyone's fine and A belated Happy birthday to my dearest nation, Singapore. Few weeks had passed again and i am back posting again.

I am really bored now. Can you imagine that I am blogging in the midst of setting papers? Students, pray hard as I am squeezing the last bit of my brain juice to make your life difficult. haha.

I am moving towards the light quite soon. After September, everything will become a breeze and soon enough I will be basking in the cool air of Taiwan. I will enjoy myself thoroughly as I will soak in the atmosphere for almost a month..haha

I dreamt of a nightmare recently that I had a child and I dreamt I had it with you...kinda bittersweet..haha....

Till then, cya ard.....

I want to change my blogskin!!!

2009-07-21T23:04:00.001+08:00

First thing first....I promise from now onwards, I will try to update my blog regularly. Secondly, I want to change my blog skin. Is there any kind soul out there that are willing to help me? Pretty please?

Anyway, got back my car after two weeks of not seeing her. I am very happy with her. She has made me proud. Kudos.

Anyway, Happy bdae Rab....quickly get married to you know who...haha

Inspired but disappointed and angry!!!

2009-07-20T10:19:00.002+08:00

Hey there everyone. How's life? Hope everyone is going on in their life well and happy.

For me....School has started and it is back to the hustle and bustle of working life but I think this time round I am able to handle things much better. Maybe it is because I know the importance of worklife balance. 1 week ago, i bought a jap movie called departure. It is about a cello player whose band was discontinued and head back to his hometown, only to find a job that is shunned and looked down upon by all others. He work as a make over artist for the dead. He found pride in his work and in the end, met his long lost father who is dead.

This is a stirring movie. It is poignant because it bothers on acceptance of death and how death must be seen as something that is beautiful and a continuation of life. I highly recommend people to watch this. Whoever wants it, just tell me and i will pass it to you.

Next good news first, my car got third in the Thailand Sound Challenge. At least it is a worthwhile ride up.

Lastly, I am disappointed and angry with you. Friend who know each other so long and I cannot believe that you have backstabbed me. Ask yourself truthfully, did i ever take advantage of you? It is ok....from this small issue, I have seen through you and to think that i have tried to mediate for you when you got into a conflict. I gave up, all this year I have been trying to be a gd fren. From this moment onwards, we will just be friends ba....enough maybe is enough. Maybe you know who you are, maybe you do not know but who cares....karma my friend...karma..

Till then...take care and cya......

Back To School

2009-06-28T22:20:00.002+08:00

Holidays have officially ended. Let me think what have I done for the holidays....Basically nothing. Haha. All holiday plans have been shelved. Days are spent either resting or playing basketball. Not Bad.....quite a healthy lifestyle.

Going for my medical appointment on thurs..may schedule an appointment for surgery. But den again, when will I have the time to go for the op? July - Aug - oral exams, July - Oct - preparation for O level....

Anyway, hope that everything goes well when terms reopen.....H1N1 Shoosss....

The Light...the light!!!

2009-05-18T00:29:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long time...i know.....my last post has stirred up a lot within the community of students that nw we have officially have a new tagline...hey gorgeous....

Have been realli bz with all the exams and marking and all other stuffs....But the light is near...two more weeks and it is holiday...yesss....

This month has been a happy mth for me.....Man U is officially the champion.....at last we can proudly say, who is liverpool as they have been saying they are the ones who have won the most league title.....haha...so funny....kudos to man u...it has been a tough fight and seriously kudos to all teams...it has been a exciting season to watch...

i have bought a Bally shoe at a steal.....can believe it n it is realli nice...am so happi at myself....

That all for updates...

take care...till then...cya

Sick!!!

2009-04-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

It has been once again a very very long time since I have blogged....have not been feeling well nowadays...the weather is killing me and I am bogged down with a lot of things. Students are having the mid yr exams soon and coupled with the competitions, I am definitely busy.....

But then again, the end of the tunnel is reaching soon. I met a gorgeous lady at Boat Asia on Sunday. I told her you are definitely gorgeous. She say she is shy cox ppl seldom this. I say beauty is meant to be appreciated and you are one to be appreciated. Just wondering why ppl just cannot compliment jus like how they cannot accept criticism....

Head giddy...till then..take care and cya

A long long time.....

2009-04-09T17:18:00.002+08:00

It has been a long long time since I ever blogged....busy? definitely.....busy with school and other everything. Let me start with about a month ago....had a serious bout of back pain that made me go on a trip to the hospital....three injections and I seriously understand what is call the pain in the ass....It felt better maybe because the pain has been transferred from the back to the ass.

Had a week of hols...recharged....maybe.....

Started school again and it is frantic yet again...... struggling to keep afloat...lucky I have a supportive group of colleagues that allows me to keep going......

Can't wait for the new car sound system to be up and had my new rims...yummy.....

Can't wait to have a getaway...anyone interested? haha.....

A lot of can't wait but whether it can be accomplished remains to be seen

Just notice something recently.....i got a feeling that people usually want to know me because I am a medium for them to achieve something...kinda of sad rite? But then again..that's life......

Enjoy the long weekend

till then.....take care and cya....

The poor lonely soul!!!

2009-03-08T23:18:00.002+08:00

Have not been updating my blog regularly cox has been realli busy with work n other stuffs. Work wise it is still the same..busy is the word to use....but den again wat is new about tht? Received 2 gd news tht my frens are getting married and congrats to them...when i received their wedding invitations, I gt an idea...i decided to scroll dwn my phone jux to check n hw many frens can i call to go out with anytime....i found a shocking news.....more than half of my frens are either attached, engaged or married....

It gt me thinking....wat about me? am I so lousy tht nobody wan me? maybe i am fat,poor and ugly? I am a traditional man in a way that i wan a family but it seems to not be happening in the way things are going right nw....I am too busy with wrk and other stuffs to meet new ppl in my life....even if there is some one tht i am interested in (which actualli there is...maybe)....i have no time to pursue a courtship (maybe even the lack of courage ba) or maybe just tht i noe tht it maybe impossible ba.....

I realli dunno n i jux wan a companion for life...a soulmate....anyone can help?

Till then....take care and cya.....

It has been such a long long time......

2009-02-24T19:12:00.002+08:00

It has been such a long long time since i have blogged. Almost 2 - 3 weeks.....another uneventful few weeks have passed....what have I done? Basically nothing.....had buried myself under tons and tons of work......Maybe one of the highlight is watching Break Out....the korean bboys are just superb and wat is more surprising is the gal dancers who are making break dancing seems so easy.

The end is near and i realli realli need a rest.....

tht all...

till then...take care and cya

Yet another uneventful week!!!

2009-02-08T15:20:00.002+08:00

Another uneventful week has passed again......let me see wat did I do? Work and work and work...maybe the highlight was laughing at the female students when i brought a hot teacher to the class during FTC.....it is absolutely hilarious.....they all are so shy and kept laughing.....

Went to the Flyer with the aussie teachers....had great fun bring them ard tht day......photos uploaded on my Facebook....Went out yesterday....gt my ipod nano (yes!!) and bought a pink polo tee.....oh ya I forgot abt the emo spec tht all of us asked a student to buy...it is so so cool...

I told my colleague tht my dress code for this yr is emo and geeky...

Jux finish reading one of the jimmy comic that i bought from taiwan.....it is called turn left and turn right....for those who are wondering the movie is actualli derived from this comic....he draw very well and his words jux strikes your heart....it jux make me wonder wen the one appear in my life or r we still gg to walk in diff direction n never meet......

1 week before Valentine's Day...i shall leave all of you with this poem...

They're both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them
Such certainty is beautiful
but uncertainty is more beautiful still

till then.....Take care n cya

Another Emo Post!!

2009-02-01T23:16:00.002+08:00

I think this feb is not going to be a gd mth.....Some of my frens are facing prob and i do hope tht they are feeling alright...dun worry.....the beacon of light will always shine on you.....if there is a relationship prob.....dun worry....i spend my last 3 valentine's day without any valentine....i will be arranging a bride finding trip to vietnam.....gals...u can go n find guys too..haha....

Those with other prob.....dun worry.......things will utlimately be solved...it is impt to be happy...cox you can make ppl happy...

I was watching this taiwan variety show and they are singing some Hokkien songs....memories jux came flooding back again....i continue to think and miss you.....i never thought ur death affects me so much...maybe tht is y ppl say wen your loved one is living...you will never miss them and dun even think of them but wen they are gone eternally.....you jux cannot stop thinking of them.....

This is wat i am feeling nw...missing u and those hu had left me, struggling in this mortal world alone.......

till then....take care n cya

Thanks guy

2009-01-25T02:22:00.002+08:00

Thank you all for the concern that you all have shown me....it is really a sad time for me as some of you know how dear tht uncle is to me....but dun worry, I am ok.....

I always believe ppl hu left us will not wan us to be sad abt their departure and with the beautiful memories, they always live in your heart. Of course, there are pain and sadness but living your life well will be something that he will want to see.....the pain and sorrow shall be kept deep within my heart as i will just remember all the happiness you had given to me.....

anyway, happi chinese new year to all

till then, cya

So Long.....,My Dear Uncle

2009-01-23T18:34:00.002+08:00

I remember the time tht you always protect me from the bullies at the playground, the time tht you feed me supper wen i refuse to wake up to eat....the time you always steal food and let me eat and the times you secretly bring me to eat fish head curry during your break time and drinking the curry from a straw. The times where you brought me on boat ride to kupkup's kelong and stuff like this.....you treated me like your son....

you are also the one tht introduced me to the vices....you taught me hw to play mahjong which until today is a favorite pastime of mine.....i remember hw you lie to me about beer being soft drink during my cousin bdae and making me drunk wen i was jux 5 yrs old......i still can remember my mum scoding of you

Although we sorta of lost contact as i grew older......the beautiful memories tht i had with you of my childhood remains.....and it is even so wen i was told tht you left this world.....my heart sank....as i drove to the mortuary, the memories jux came flodding back and the heart became heavier.....and wen i learnt tht you passed away without anyone by your side and left in the mortuary for a day...I was in agony.....

As i saw u for one last time.......i still can remember u vivdly...u are always in my mind.....so long...goodbye....my dear Ah Seng...

Overwhelmed, Tired and Disappointed!!!

2009-01-18T23:16:00.003+08:00

It has been such a long long time since i ever posted a post......Like some of my frens and students said, it is a dead blog....cox i am dying soon too...

School had started with a new principal and major changes are definitely in the pipeline...i think tht it is a positive change....and i kinda of like it....had sore eyes for almost a week(hw nice it is) and even nw my eyes are like blurry...wanted to see a specialist....but where gt time?

My days are spent wrking, wrking and wrking.....paperwrk after paperwrk.....lesson after lesson...planning after planning.....there seems to have no end to the wrk.....i am seriously tired and overwhelmed...

my form class is a fun lot and they are generally gd and well-behaved....my former form class is a lovely lot and the rest of the students that i teach or taught are nice and they are the ones tht keep me going on through this ardous path......thank you.....

I am seriously disappointed for the past few days....pondering abt something tht someone had said....all my efforts seem nt to be appreciated and wateva i do had nt seem to prove myself to you...you have doubts abt me, den y bother? y am i in this sch? I DID not choose the school but i try to make the best out of it...doing wateva i can for the school and the students.....but if tht is still nt enough.....den i reallii do nt noe wat to say and do.....

Think wateva you wan and i dun even care....tht is me.....

Anyway, as the Chinese New Year is drawing near.....happi chinese new year to all out there..........

till then...take care and cya

Happy New Year!!!

2009-01-01T03:55:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to everyone out there!!!

May your wishes come true and have a good year ahead....

Years come and go...it is important to remember the good memories but nt to forget the bad ones as they are the ones tht make us learn n grow......

Goodbye 2008, Hello 2009

2008-12-30T23:41:00.002+08:00

It has been quite long since I updated my blog.....had been trying to enjoy the very last bit of my holiday before starting the hectic working schedule again. As 2008 draw to a close, it is time to end with some reflection of sorts and wat to look forward to in 2009....

2008 has been quite a gd year for me.....career wise it started off with practicuum in CHR which I can said to be challenging (some things are best left nt said). I survived and I was posted back to the school again...I was worried, afraid of what is held for me after what has happened during my experience there.....

It is tiring and hectic wen wrk resumed after practicuum....slowly I gt to enjoy my wrk due to some fabulous colleagues and fantastic students tht always seem to make your day even if u are having a rotten day...they make me love my job and in a way, feel appreciated when the going gets tough....

Tht is all for career wise....

Life wise....it has been fruitful cox I hav achieved whateva I wan to do and been to wherever I planned to go....Been to the first night race and Taiwan...both left me memories tht will definitely last thruout my life......

What to expect for 2009.....more hectic workload and more firefighting?

Paycut? Recession? No bonus?

Hu noes?

Que Sera Sera
Whteva will be will be
The Future not us to see

Till then....Happy New Year....cya in 2009

Merry X'mas

2008-12-24T13:00:00.002+08:00

Wishing everyone out there a Merry X'mas and a Happy New Year...the year is again coming to an end and tht means 2 things for me....I am getting a yr older and sch is starting again....haha....

Looking at the past yr, I think I hav achieved quite a lot, started on my wrk and completing most of the new yr resolution that i have set for myself....Shld be happi...But so wat is my next yr resolution?...i am still thinking abt it...

tht all...enjoy ur x'mas eve...

till then...take care n cya

As the year slowly draw to an end!!!

2008-12-17T00:16:00.002+08:00

I am back again....updating my blog...it has been abt a week since i am back frm taiwan....missing the country and slowly adjusting back to the stupid busy pace Singapore has....has been bz for the past few days....wen to do my car servicing, add an alarm, change the light for my sound system....went for my nephew's bdae, shop for new yr stuff with mom and went shopping today....everything seem to go on so fast....on fri back to sch again...haiz

December has always been quite a bad month for me.....things start and ended...leaving me with painful memories tht i always seek to hide somewhere deep inside...hoping tht it will never come up again but den......it always does wen it came to this month....

I thot tht i can forget but i can never.....

But tht is life...ya..ppl move on with lingering memories of the past tht u sometimes jux cannot let go....yet, it is always the beautiful memories tht led u to remember the past....u will laugh and smile brightly while ur heart aches and yearn for it.......

This is technically an emo post and i hope to end with the starting of the poem....some of you maybe familiar with the first phrase but never realli knew tht it is a poem...

it goes....

世界上最遥远的距离，是当我在你身边，但你不知到我爱你
世界上最遥远的距离，是当两个人相爱，但却又不能在一起

the poem still continues but i cannot remember the rest....cheesy? yes cliche? yes
but seriously who cares

till then....take care...cya

Back From Taiwan

2008-12-10T00:36:00.003+08:00

What is left for me?

Greetings to all. I am back from Taiwan and I am missing it alr.....Hmm...not that I dun like Singapore, I have lovely family, friends and er..ok...lovely students...but Taiwan jux gave me a very different feeling that i always wanted..laidback in a modern city with a whole lot of beautiful scenery...

I let me think about a lot of things that happened in my life...it is one of the country tht we promised to go together but it never happened...the art and culture gave me a lot of inspiration and advice towards life and art...it is one pof my fav artist, jimmy liao and a lot of good movies...

I went to a lot of places, e.g Danshui, Keelung, Yeliu, Jiufen, Shilin, Yang Ming Shan, Gu Gong....blah blah blah....and the scenery, the ppl and the food is just superb....

This trip gave me an inspiration to write a travelogue about my feelings and emotions everytime i go travelling...

Please dun tell me to upload all the photos but i hav uploaded one of my fav...haha....

I jux finished watching one of the movie I brought back plus jimmy liao's book....it jux gave me something to think abt....first of all the movie is called the most distant course or zhui yao yuan de ju li....it is abt 3 city person being pressured in the city life and how they seek to find a channel to relieve...kinda of sad but isn't it wat we r trying to do?

There are so much to say but diff to write dwn...haha

take care my frens...

till then...cya ard

Greetings frm Taiwan

2008-12-01T21:30:00.001+08:00

Here I am in Taiwan....greetings.....enjoying here.....went to a lot of places n eaten a lot of stuff..haha

Definitely coming back here...can i jux stay here n nt go hm..haha.....

till then cya

Off to Taiwan in 8 hr!!!

2008-11-29T04:44:00.002+08:00

Haha...the day has come for me to leave on a jetplane....to Taiwan....my frens...dun miss me k? haha

Anyway, went to red dot and the design and art exhibition is very very nice.....and i got to know a few crazy frens over there...let hope tht we will keep in contact ya....

will keep you all updated on my taiwan trip regularly..will oni be back on the 8th Dec...anything sms me ba..

Till then....take care...

International Friendship Camp

2008-11-24T11:56:00.003+08:00

This is wat u get wen u go for camp and you are old....knocked for almost 15 - 16 hrs n waking up still wanting more slp....where was the me that can last 3 days without slp and still act as if i hav slept for the past 3 days.....gone......haizz

Anyway, went for IFC 08....knida of fun with a bunch of crazy students who seem to hav endless energy and stupid faces and wateva so tht seem to light up the day....went dragonboating with them on the first day and soak in water for almost 2 hr...kinda of relaxing...jux lking at the sky and watchin the plane go by.....at night was the bbq nite...i never went to a camp where students are so well fed...haizz......shld hav born a few years lata....haha

Second day went to the downtown rendenzvous and it is fun walking ard Singapore.....n i found out tht actualli Singapore is realli quite small and we are the first....haha...see hw important a gd teacher is...lol....den at night was the cultural night where each sch has to perform a dance or watsoeva....Gd job to the CHRians...you have dance well and I am so proud of u all.....after dat, everyone went crazy and started jumping ard...The last day was nt very eventful...all the clearing up and each grp has to paint a canvas which some grp did very nicely.....and den home sweet home....

At last i can hav a full break but haiz thurs and fri has course haizzz...but den again sat is flying off...haha

6 more days to taiwan....

till then cya....

The Good Old Days!!!

2008-11-20T11:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a gd day.......

Went out early in the morning to shop and cut hair.......bought a pair of jeans....so happy...haha.....den went to cut, dye and treat my hair.....thinking abt buying ps 3 and nano...hmmm...still thinking hw much bonus will i have first...lol

Went to meet up with some good old frens tht i seem to neglect and forget after i started teaching...maybe is bcox they r wrking at nite which resulted in me unable to see and meet up with them...had a gd chat and joke abt a lot of things....update each other abt our own lives and hw old we r nw....memories jux came flooding back abt the days wen i wrk with them...we enjoyed and suffered together....but all those are beautiful memories tht will etched deep in ur heart...

Ppl always say tht wrking in nightlife is bad, cox it is filled with gangsters and ppl hu failed in life.....but wrking in it for 7 yrs....i never realli thot of it tht way...i taught me a lot of things and it has given a lot of true frens tht i can keep for the rest of my life.....ppl hu i will think of meeting up constantly....

I jux can wait to get my butt on the plane to taiwan nw...but first need to go for camp tml....International Friendship Camp....sound quite grand hor....haha

10 more days to taiwan...haha

till then cya....

Thank You, Jadie

2008-11-15T01:17:00.002+08:00

Dear all, hw is my new blogskin? I think tht it is nice and it is courtesy of my dear student, jadie long...thank you so much....but dat does nt mean tht u can escape frm anything, including the watever dance..lol

watched bond today, it is nice....jux thinking....you like the rugged bond that craig displayed or the suave wan that brosman displayed...

any comments?

till then cya

Spring Cleaning!!!

2008-11-13T22:20:00.002+08:00

As the year drew to a close, it is time to clear the rubbish tht is left lying in my room....haha...yes...i hav done my spring cleaning and contributed a vacuum cleaner and toaster oven to my house....so i am poorer le..haizzz.....

I never went school today...slack at hm until my dad came back and we went for lunch....told my mama i wan to spring clean....she say house dun have vacuum cleaner le...i say tht y bringing u all go shopping...so bought a vacuum cleaner and toaster oven..

Went to popular....my mama say wan to buy photo album...suddenly i feel like buying....bought one and wanted to consolidate my photos....my mum is gg through the photos and i gt my childhood photos frm her....it is like....omg.....i am so so cute...ppl may say i bhb...but it is realli true....

After spring cleaning, decided to consolidate my photos....took 3 hrs.....gt back lotsa of memories...beautiful and sad....but it is still a gd thng to do rather than stuck in office...haha

till then...cya

Are you sure that is called holidays?

2008-11-12T20:54:00.002+08:00

Yesterday is should be the last paper of O level for most students...After the announcement that they are allowed to go, they cheered...I am supposed to cheer too....but wait.....am i having my hols? Hmmm...let me think.....got camp to prepare and attend....gt 2 courses......gt to report back school early.....not realli ba.....

Yet, luckily I having gg to camp with fun students.....today, I jux went to dance rehearsal with them today.....it is so fun...never did I know that folk dance is so so tiring.....we are having lotsa of fun in the dance studio and I think they will have a whole lotsa of fun during next week's camp ba.....

today is quite a dark day for a few of my students......i noe it is diff for you all to swallow but it is the experience rather than the results that you all need to consider....You all must remember you all lose to a better team.....next time will be better.....It is easy to say but ya.....you all must learn to pick urself up from failures and be a stronger person and team.....that is hw teams bcome stronger......dun be too disappointed...cox in my eyes...all of you are the best.....

till then...cya

Sex and the City Revisited!!!

2008-11-06T13:36:00.003+08:00

2 post in a days, it jux reflect how bored i am...haha

After so many seasons of Sex and the City, the novel and lastly the movie, I still mux say tht it rocks. No matter wat ppl say abt me liking Sex and the City equates to something abt my sexuality, i still think tht behind all the cosmo, sex, manolo, birkins, vuitton and beautiful women and guys, this show represents a stark reality of women, men and society. What i get from this, i think women and men are both equally insecure and unsure about wat they wan but force by society to act within the roles that they are being prescribed to be in....

The first Sex and the City episode that i watched revolves ard this issue of how to have sex like men...they discuss the issue about y men can literary have sex without emotions while female could not....y nt say about wat causes this...the society....samantha jones can do it bcox she likes it.....

I rewatched Sex and the City: the movie just now.....it starts with people come to New York for 2 L - love and label. kinda of cool.. i think....the 4 ladies learnt more about love from cheating husband, runaway groom, faithful and loving husband and lastly someone u love but not more than yourself. In a way, it shows us something that is love is not about labeling u as my wife, girlfriend or wateva so....it is about tht connection with tht someone...

i always ask my frens, how u noe u r in love? or wen u say u love someone after breaking with somebody or even wen u claim u love someone whereby u r cheating on somebody....has society cheapen the definition of the word love to that extent that ppl say it for the sake of saying it....

maybe i am stupid to still have that idealistic notion of love...about how it shld be like and stuff like this....but hu does nt? yet sometimes reality jux smack u in ur face and wake u up...this is wat happen to carrie bradshaw who plan a grand wedding but never realli expected a runaway groom..but had ppl thot that sometimes their own idea or expectation is not wat others wanted which is wat carrie understood at the end.....she always think abt what she think and want, not what they wan....kinda of sad huh.....

anyway....jux some thoughts abt the show....i seriously recommended it to ppl who are of legal age to watch this show....

ending this post with one nice quote from the show....

ever thine, ever mine, ever ours

Holidays!!!

2008-11-06T10:22:00.002+08:00

I am back again......thanks for all the concern that my frens have shown after my blog.....I am ok...jux wondering abt something ba.......

Anyway, holidays are finally coming to somewhere near me...getting excited....yes and no ba.....
yes cox i am going taiwan...haha...no...bcox it seems nt like a holiday to me.....my nov are packed with activities...camp and stuff like this.....and i will start wrking by mid dec...so hw to be happi?

My fren, it is gd to keep something close to your heart and not let ppl noe....but do not keep everything to urself, k? The whole incident is not ur fault, dun keep blaming urself....u urself are one of victim...as for the one at fault..u n i perfectly noe hu is it.....trust me...ur frenship will ultimately prevail over everything and ur frenship will be stronger.....u cannot go on worrying so much abt everything tht comes ur way....already so skinny liao and somemore is a skinny panda (oops) that lk like wat a panda will eat...haha....you noe dat anything u nd someone to listen to....i will always be there to listen n give advice....so ya...enjoy n be happi...

till then...cya

Get Real

2008-11-02T03:48:00.001+08:00

My friends, please kindly note that there will not be anything like ou xiang ju ending, fairytale endings and any sort of airy fairy sorta of endings.....get real.....

Nearing the Holidays!!!

2008-11-01T00:18:00.002+08:00

As all the students are having holidays, i am only nearing my much needed break....after 2 more weeks of invigilation......i can enjoy.....people say tht invigilation is very relaxing and you can enjoy the time....i dun realli think so.....watching time pass ever so slowly plus the stacking of work is definitely not something to enjoy about....SOW, work review, camps and watever u can think of that i will nt be doing......

i read a new reporting on teacher wearing a skimpy bikini and posting it online...i think it sparks a furry of arguments about hw it affects or will not affects the teacher's professionalism and hw students will lk at the teacher.....I was jux thinking about it jux nw......a few thoughts came to my mind

Firstly, i write in such lousy english bcox i wan to type fast and in a way typing in short forms....so i do apologize to moral entrepreneurs out there who think tht i should write in this manner.

Secondly, the teacher's image and professionalism cannot be commented by me as I think it is up to people how they perceived what is a teacher's image and professionalism. I think i will totally fail that and thus i decided to keep my comments close to my heart.....

Thirdly, I would like to hear ur views on this issues, do pls comment on the tagbox....i cannnot comment does not mean tht you all cannot.....

ppl always say....Issac is strong, streetwise, can handle a lot of things......but i am feeling lost, empty.....realli...kinda of lost.......

till then cya....

The Leap Year!!!

2008-10-20T21:11:00.002+08:00

"A unique and timeless love story told in just 4 days but spans 16 years, The Leap Years center on Li Ann (Wong Li Lin), a modern girl with the rare sensibility of believing that there is one person out there that can truly complete her - her soulmate. On a windy leap day in 1992, she meets Jeremy (Ananda Everingham). They made a rare connection only to realize he was leaving the country that very nigh. He makes a promise to meet her every leap day thereafter, same place, same time......."

I have shown my students this show, hoping that they will be able to understand the nuances and appreciate how good Singapore Literature is....well I get mixed reactions to tht...some of them seems to be able to appreciate the beautiful movie (coming from a beautiful book) but some of them jux oni noe hw to relish the kissing scenes and stuff like this....

I truly love this show....it shows a certain struggle tht a lot of us can identify in finding the right one..sometimes the right one does not seem to be the one...sometimes u miss out on the right one....sometimes u struggle btw the right one or the one tht love u the most....Soulmate? someone tht share your troubles or gave u more troubles?

Li Ann is a stubborn and some say a foolish women (a lot of my students said tht it is crazy to wait 16 years for a person, even ms e said so) but seriously i do admire her perserverance with what she wan in life...but seriously will it be realistic in real life.....i myself think tht it is a fairytale tht we can oni hope for....

In this movie, I loved the two phrases that was stated. It goes.....

"It is better to have loved and lost, then not to love before" Tennyson

"I have learnt about life and it is in three words. It goes on...." Robert Frost

Famous poets in their times and they are still famous now. Their works are timeless, including the 2 phrases..This part is deidicated to my frens and students who are facing relationship probs....n funny there are quite a lot...haha....

One thing is that you have to understand loving does not mean that you have to be together with tht certain someone forever....it means seeing tht person being happi....as long as you all hav loved b4....the beautiful memories will always remain jux like in the show...hw Li Ann remembers that 4 leap days they been through and she shared with Dyllan....Bu Zai Hu Tian Chang Di Jiu, Zi Zai Hu Cheng Jin Yong You.......The most beautiful thing about loving is not abt being together but the memories tht you all are able to generate tht will last you for a lifetime....

Second thing.....time n tide wait for no man.....the time will not stop for you even if you think tht you hav stopped....the clock is continuing to tick...every moment it is moving.....you r growing older day by day....this does nt change....Yes, you may cry and may even wan to die....but is it worth the trouble.....the world will continue to move without you....Wen you fall, learn frm it and move on....it will make you a stronger person to face the world...people learn frm failure and improves......life still goes on my dear frens and students.....

Lastly, passerby - I do admit tht I am very emotional and I feel a lot for things and stuff like this haha....maybe tht is y i am a literature teacher ba.....Students, enjoy ur coming holidays ba

till then...cya

What is Love?

2008-10-14T20:34:00.002+08:00

This few days have been quite relaxing for me....finished marking and waiting for the results to be consolidated....I am happy that most of my students have did well (although i kept scaring all of you...haha). For those who never did, do not be too sad...learn from it and work hard.

I have a mixed day today.....happy to see tht all the results are quite gd but bad bcox i think this is the first time i realli wan to flare up...sorry if I never realli control my temper.....played some bball with students and colleagues....n lata played a bit of volleyball with my students...it was a fun day and i went back early today...haha....

On saturday, I bought 2 shows, namely Leap Year and Sky of Love with the intention of sharing with my classes.....but i started watching Sky of Love le.....and I stopped halfway....cox i got a feeling, it is a very sad movie and i dun wan to cry in the staff room....hahhaha

But in the end, i reached home and I watched the english remake version of MY Sassy Girl....i got emo...cox this is one show tht realli touched my heart (the koream version..i mean)....I fell in love with Canon In D (any piano students wan to play for me..haha) bcox of this show.....this show makes me believe in the way I always believe woman shld be treated....it brought back some beautiful memories that I had in my past relationships....those tht will bring warmth and happiness whenever you think of them.....

Yet, it jux make you wonder why all this cannot seems to last.....i had never been gd in handling relationship but i tried my best...maybe the best is never the best....one of my frens jux broke up with her bf and is very affected by it...Much tht i hope that you are ok but i noe you never will be...but sometimes dragging on may not be a gd thing....it jux make everything worse and you cannot hav the beautiful memories that you are supposed to have....Move on maybe a better options although i know that it will be very very hard...

For you...you should know who i am talking abt...i am very happy tht you have decided to move on...you are a cute and attractive gal that will never hav a lack of suitors....take your time....I am happy that you know wat is your priority in life....i realli hope that you will keep this maturity but dun be so so stressed....

till then.....cya.....holidays are coming....

Marking and Marking

2008-10-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

When I was young, I always thought that teachers have good life....they jux teach the few classes and mark the few papers...wat is so difficult abt it? Wen i came into teaching, that is where I noe their tong ku.....need to think of how to interest the students and plan lesson for them...mark tons and tons of wrk which ard 70% will jux make you vomit blood....

After a week of marking, I am still marking and marking.....it seems to be endless....

But i know one thing for sure that is after this, i can realli relax and enjoy....waiting for tht taiwan trip.....haha

But still, knowing tht wat I am gg to do for next yr jux make my hair stand.....it seems scarier than this yr.....hmmm.....jux take things one at a time ba....

I think that nwadays my sch has these 4 lunatics running ard n laugh n laugh n laugh....they hav weird nicknames too....SNJ, fishball, Chupa Chups aka lollipop and last but nt least the mad woman who keep running ard in the library....

It seems that they alwas forget to eat their medicine n one of them always has this few replies....finefine..wateva....shaddup la...retarded...bai chi....lame.....diao....wah lau eh.....faints.....hehs.....

Just wonder who they are...

Till then....cya

Happy Children Day

2008-10-01T23:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN DAY!!!!!

That is for my students......may all of you be children forever.....and once again....

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

To all my students and colleagues......Lastly....

GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EOY EXAMS

To all my students....

I have been ok for this few weeks.....went to F1 and have a good time for the weekend....kinda of sad cox ferrari crashed out but was quite happi to see kimi n massa in person n hav a autograph cap from them.....but never see schumi...so sad..haha......

This few weeks hav been great...although almost vomit finished all my blood marking all the papers.....n i am still continuing cox still hav nt mark finish....nw i noe hw my teacher feel wen they are marking my paper last time......

Feel tht everything is moving towards the end nw......the crazy time of rushing out things r done n heading towards the holidays...haha.....

Yesterday, went out with my fantastic colleagues again.....hav a great lunch at fish n co and after dat, went ktving with them....had realli a great time n ya........sing until almost no voice.....slp until very late today n went sim lim with my buddy.....

Tht all for nw...till then cya.....

Poor students!!!

2008-09-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

I have to admit that nowadays I feel more relaxed as the students' exams are coming....this is because I do not need to think of what and how to teach them...n it means tht I am nearing to my EOY taiwan trip...wohooooo......haha...but once i think of after tml, i hav 10 cls of paper to mark and have to complete all of it within 2 weeks.....it jux turned me off.....

Secondly, seeing my students wrking so hard makes me feel sad and guilty....Sad bcox some of them are placing too much stress on themselves to achieve results. Seeing them wrking so hard and staying up even as I am writing this blog jux make my heart feel so pain...haiz...cox wat is there to study about eng? I realli dunno and never study b4...hahha....but i am happi tht some of them will tell me tht they r afraid and i hope tht my advice or scolding will wrk...haha

Y guilty? I was never as hardwrking as anyone of them b4.....never realli think of fighting for the no 1 or watsoeva....I was lucky to be wat i am and where i am now....which is y i always say the results do not matter, it is wat u learn in the process.....

anyway, gd luck to all my students for ur EOY...i am confident that you all will do well and probs will always be there...be it relationship, family or studies.....take it as a challenge...face it...dun escape and overcome it...it is difficult but u will be a stronger person after this.....I think tht is more valuable to wateva u learn and the rank tht u all wan to achieve...bcox it is this kind of mentality tht will allow u to succeed in wateva u wan to do in life....

Till then...cya and take care my frens.....

Thank you, my students!!!!

2008-09-18T19:57:00.002+08:00

This few days have been one of the happiest days of my life......I am realli touched by my students......Walking along the corridor and hearing all their blessing jux make my day.....thank you, 1/3 for the not so surprised party...haha....i am realli touched.....although u all hav a test to carry on....haha..thank you for the card and special thanks to ksbr, jadie, weiting, kenny, rhys, siwen and nicholas for the cake....and 1/3 for the card.....and thanks to the mysterious person hu gav the la bi xiao xing to me although i think i noe hu r u.....thanks you, rhys, kimberly and germanine for feeding me the cake in such a nice way...i will defintitely remember all of ur bdae frm now on....Thank you 2/5 for the party too and chanel and ira for the pressie.....clara for the cake.....n lastly all the students tht gav me pressie and well wishes.....you all hav been fantastic.....although i will nt want you all to spend money on those but thanks...wat i hope is tht all of you do well in your exam and be happi in ur life.....

Work hard for your exams and gd luck...it is the last burst...finish it n u will enjoy ur holidays....

till then...take care and cya.....

Officially 26!!!

2008-09-16T15:49:00.014+08:00

One hr and 21 min into my 26th yr as a human being.....I think this is one of the best bdae i ever had.....Thank you all my frens and students....

I bought a new phone for my own bdae with a small sponsorship from my dear mum..haha....but sadly enough, I lost all the contacts, so if i ever ask you all for your contacts...please dun blame me..haha

I had a great time this evening with my buddies....we talked and ate in a small and isolated corner of Singapore...simple it may be...but the company is great.....it has been such a long time since i seen my buddies.....talked abt everything under the sun and updating our lives....I missed all my frens, some tht i held greatly to my heart.....

Frens are some ppl tht will accompany you throughout your life and I am happi tht I have all of you in my life....Let me take this oportunity to thank those who hav accompanied me thru my life till this stage......you are not forgotten...

GG to slp le...tml hav sch again.....i once dread gg to sch but nw maybe nt...cox i hav a great bunch of students and teachers to hav fun with..

till then...take care n cya

Happy Birthday to ME!!!

2008-09-16T15:49:00.012+08:00

Today is my bdae and I am having a holiday.....how gd can it be? haha.....It has been such a long time since I hav blogged and I better blog before ppl say that I lied to her....haha....Haizz..I am officially 26 yrs old and am realli getting old le....somemore still hav to nag ppl to eat, slp and study.....hw not to get even older...haha......

I had a great time yesterday with my colleagues, went for a buffet dinner and chill out at oosh@dempsey......i was touched by 4 of my students who called at 12 to wish me a happi bdae....definitely one of the best bdae gift i received...thank you....today morning recieved more greetings and blessing...thank you all of you.....

As for work....it is getting better and I hav a great time forcing students to stay back and study.....it is great to see your suffering,especially g.....haha.....jking.....although all of you are complaining but i noe that you are putting in effort to study and I am realli happi abt it.....I am happi to see all of you being motivated and taking ownership in your studies.....i noe that you all will do well in life....

Lastly, I decided to post some pic of my life in sch for you all...and students you all are inside...haha

My class 1/6 During Class Camp

The crazy gal of 2/1

Campfire Burning

Such polite students..haha

Learning how to kayak

Gabriel Teh

Gotcha Zoe yee

Camp Echo Teachers

The place I want to be......

On my bdae, I decided to have one poem by one of fav philosophers, friedrich nietzsche

“I, too, who “know” am dancing my dance; that the knower is a means for prolonging the earthly dance and thus belongs to the masters of ceremony of existence; and the sublime consistency and interrelatedness of all knowledge perhaps is and will be the highest means to preserve the universality of dreaming and the mutual comprehension of all dreamers and thus the continuation of the dream.”

This respresent the perception of life. Whatever we experience now is just a appearance without essence, which show the emptiness of being. Yet, we still pursue this falsified truth to keep on living. It is how you shape your life bcox you are the one that decide your life..

HAPPY BDAE TO ME!!!!

Take care my frens...till then...cya..

Happy Teachers' Day

2008-08-29T00:05:00.002+08:00

Jus had my first teachers' day dinner and i jux finished packing my stuff for camp echo tml. Back on sun and going for outdoor instructor course on tues to fri....hw nice a way to end my first term being a teacher.....

Next up, EOY paper setting and work review and it jux continue on and on...i am definitely lking forwward to my taiwan trip in dec.....

The workload never seem to finish and it jux continue to pile up even u try to clear asap....but i can take it....but it is the students' attitude that i can never take...being unmotivated and heck care abt anything jux pissed me off.....I hav to admit i was once like tht or maybe even worse but at least i care abt the teachers hu care and make an effort to be nice to them....

Student tell me, cher u are very different in cls and outside cls....i told her of cox.....cox u nd to learn in cls and if u all dun do ur wrk, u think i can always joke with you? does it sound logical but ppl dun understand that....I thought i have a sad happy day but bcox of some students, you hav indeed brighten up my teachers' day.

Thanks yunyi, yifan, 2/9 and other students that i forgot to name, you have brighten up my day everytime i see you all or wat you all have tagged....u all never failed to brighten up my days...i noe sometimes you all say nice things to make me happy, i realli appreciate all this....you all are the ones that keep me in believing to teach....In a way, you all are my teachers also....i have also say, although i am teacher in name, sometimes you all are my teachers also...

Thanks to my buddies in sch, you all have been the source of encouragement for me. Although sometimes i am unhappy over some issues but you are the ones that keep me going on and I hope i did tht for you all....sometimes i may have joked overboard but tht is the way i used to destress so sorry.....

Happy teacher day and let us soldier on for the last part of the year together.

Disappointed!!

2008-08-25T20:05:00.002+08:00

I am disappointed...realli disappointed. In my short term being a teacher, I have never felt so so down before. When I see the results, I felt so down....N when i went to class, today I felt that I am nt a gd form teacher too...

I cared for them as if they are my own children, protecting them from almost anything. But what did I get in return? Nothing.....Nobody appreciate what I have been trying to do...what is more infuriating is their nonchalant attitude they have towards their results...ppl can tell me..fail 3 subjects oni wat....

I have tried my best and if they still think tht wateva i did is nt enough...so be it...

Wo Zai Ken Ding Tian Qi Qing

2008-08-24T20:31:00.002+08:00

The title of the post is one taiwanese drama that I got to watch during my precious slacking time at home today.....

It says of Ken Ding being a place where ppl come and run away from their problems....be it marriage or financial debts...Ken Ding is a place in taiwan that is very beautiful.....beautiful seaview with a laidback feeling to it...it jux feels like going back to the days where computer age is nt ard....

i think it is gd tht there is a pl tht ppl can run and hid and also think of their probs....you will have a fresh perspective.....but singapore? I dun think so...look at the 2 students tht commit suicide recently....do we realli know their probs? They seems so normal.....where is the pl that they can seek solace..

till then..take care and cya

Updating my Life!!!

2008-08-24T20:14:00.002+08:00

It has been a month since i updated my blog....I am fine but definitely busy with wrk.....For the past 2 weeks, I had 2 camps and will have another one this week....after this, i will have my outdoor instructor course to attend during the sept Hols.

I jux finished my class camp...n seriously i am happy for the children that they enjoyed the camp...all thanks to MS Puah and the camp instructors....my class is actualli a gd class but they sometimes jux cannot control themselves and seems unmotivated in their studies. Through the process of the camp, i think i know them a bit better. But i am realli tired out, cox i never realli slp for the camp and i have to rush for the preparation of the next camp.

But i think i do feel appreciated that ppl are seeing my efforts, students and teachers alike. I think that will keep me going out and lasting the distance.

For my cousin that is getting married on 1st sept, I hope that you will have a blissful marriage and be happi always....for my students, dun be dismayed by the results you have, it is the process of learning that is more important now, motivation is the best key to gd results...For myself?...my bdae is coming...where is my pressie...haha

till then...take care and cya.....

Sometimes love just ain't enough...

2008-07-23T23:27:00.002+08:00

Ever heard of this song? It is a very nice song..highly recommended by me.....Sometimes i really think tht love is never enough...

I realli love all my students although i scold them everytime and having boring lesson like what they say....I have tried my best...to do wateva i can for all of them...but i realised one thing today....they dun nd this kind of love...they need someone they can joke to and talk nonsense with...

I had a good time with some of my students today....i let my hair down and joke with them...i think they have a good time...some say tht i am different when i am in and outside class...of cox there is a difference...there is certain rules and regulations that you hav to follow in the class and it mux be a conducive environment for ppl to study in.....wen we r outside, we can be more relaxed and have some jokes.....

Thanks, yunyi for telling me i am a gd teacher although i think that i am still nt a gd one...i told my colleagues b4....no matter hw tough the road in front of us be and how there maybe so many students tht may dislike us...it jus take one such compliment to make my day.....

Things come and go......hw hard i try....i will never noe whether i will get it.....life is so fleeting and tht is why we live on....to hold on to the slightest hope that glimmered....In hope that it is the meaning of your life....i wanted to ask the whole school....do you know the meaning of life.....it is loving every single thing that have come across your life bcox we seldom notice someone who have made an impact on your life and move on with our life....how abt that someone who has been looking at you quietly at the corner of your eye?

happiness is definitely addictive...if you are able to see everyone ard you be happi, you will be happi....tht is the meaning of my life.....to see you be happi......

Memories!!!

2008-07-22T23:42:00.002+08:00

I always believed that memories are meant to be held tight in my heart.....cox it is something tht will make me happi when i am down n out....I was lucky as i get to revisit the memories again....

I was out with someone tht has definitely left an impact in my life.....I was happi, definitely happi....the time we share and the long talk we hav....it seems such a long time since we ever have this company....i felt comfortable......i thot i had forgotten maybe i have not......I told you abt my life tht you never heard b4 and you did too......

The familiar smile......maybe jux maybe........be happi always.....your smile will always warm my heart.....

Convo Again!!!

2008-07-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

Thurs was my convocation for NIE.....You all may think that I am happy.....y not? Let me think....graduation and one day off....I should be happy.....but i am not....

It is not that I am not happy but i jus feel that attending this kind of ceremony is bs......To me, I always think that it is fake and pretentious.....so wat is a big deal of wearing a graduation gown? Taking the scroll frm somebody.....I am nt somebody tht believe tht it is the only way to be proud of myself......

Enough of tht....

Have realli been bz...missed one of the sch...seem tht nd to make up 2 days for it.....marking....setting of lesson plan....proposal and stuff....it never seems to end....almost everyday i seem to leave sch oni after the sun set.....

I am bz but i seem to enjoy it......maybe I bask under pressure or i am jux crazy.....I do hope tht I do not get burnt out....

ok.....shall totally slack today......

till then

Hancock makes me reflect!!!

2008-07-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

Have my first long weekend of teaching.....did i rest well? No, I didn't. Got to prepare a lot of things for this week and also do some things that I nd to do....But I mux say I did have a fulfilling long weekend. Send my car for servicing, got my perfume, got my tailored shirt back and lastly meeting up with frens that I have so long never met....not to forget......watching Hancock....

Hancock is very nice...full of action and laughter...I have to admit that I never realli stop laughing till the end? I never realli like action movies but i must say that this is a gd show....but what makes me realli think abt behind all the fun and laughter was Hancock himself.....

Is packaging realli tht important to ppl? He is a superhero but nobody realli likes him....he saves the day via another method, i have to say but he still save you...are human beings so superficial tht everything is based on appearance but not wat you do or think? you may think tht I am talking abt maybe hw guys lk at gals or vice versa.....no..I am talking abt hw teachers lk at students and vice versa.....hw sure are you tht ur perceived bad students are bad and wateva they do is wrong? and students, hw sure are you tht ur bad teacher who scream and rant at you are bad and wateva they ask you to do...you jux go against?

Personally, I dun care hw ppl think abt me, as long as I know I care......N another thing, I don't judge.......

But still there are so mani ppl out there tht still place their morals upon ppl.....I dun like it and I will go against it......

Lastly, welcome back to singapore, my fren.....till then cya...bb

Exhausted!!!!

2008-07-02T08:38:00.002+08:00

It has been such a long time since I have blogged. Maybe almost a month. I have became a full fledged teacher now and trust me, it is very tiring. Time flies past wen you are in the teaching force and it seems that you will never have enough time to finish everything.

My schedule is packed with meetings, project, administrative work and wat's not teaching? I was quite happy wen I see 2/1 students. They are still a bubbly lot which makes my day everytime they greet me. But they will turn irritating wen they start teasing me and their geog teacher. So you all know wat you shld do....haha

I have a form class which is taxing a lot of my effort but i will definitely mould them into what they are supposed to be....They are actualli a lovable bunch of students but a tad bit too noisy and lazy. Then again, which students are not.........

Went for a camp recce last week for camp echo, it was definitely fun but very tiring. Now i realized that there is actually quite a lot of fun teachers in Christchurch.....we have a great deal of fun planning the activities for Camp Echo......will be involve in more intensive planning till aug wen camp Echo will start.....

A few days ago, someone told me and made me remember the past. it was definitely a beautiful period for both of us. Memories are always meant to be beautiful, don't i always say that? haha.....

lastly congrats to my cousin who is getting married.....i wonder wen will be mine...haha

ok...i nd to go for class soon..till then cya.....

Jus wanted to speak.....

2008-05-22T13:37:00.002+08:00

In the midst of the boring English lesson, the droning of the boring lecturer plus the strength to stay up to support Man Utd is putting me to slp.. So I decided to post a blog.

Firstly, Man Utd won and they rocks.....though hav to admit that it is a bit lucky but we still won...Tht is what matters.... Being a Man Utd fan for the past 14 yrs, it is one of the moments that I feel that they are better than the initial team that make me support Man Utd...Anyway, kudos to Man Utd for the DOuble....

Secondly, NIE is realli boring and I cannot wait to go back to school..although I can wake up late but still it is still such a drag to go there and faced those boring lecturers.... why can't they jux be like my NUS professors....I realli miss NUS.....

I got my results....i am confirmed going back to Christchurch......What can I do but to pray for the best and jux do my best in teaching the students....

till then.....

Back To NIE

2008-05-13T01:29:00.002+08:00

Today was the first day I went back to NIE.....It was kinda of good cox i get to meet all my friends again and no lesson plans and observation...hahaha...but tht is not the best....the best is I get to wake up very very late.....haha.....

It was an uneventful day...met up with one of my buddy since JC days for lunch at NTU and he is doing his PHD.....so envious of him.....if i have not sign the stupid bond...i am already in US to do my bloody PHD...haizz...den went for class and have a nice chit chat session with all my friends abt what we did during practicum....

NIE is still as boring.....never like tht place...so dead and devoid of life....never like tht place since the day i stepped into the place....maybe it is jux that I am one tht is anti-establishment as i never like to be controlled in one way or another...it is a blessing that i hav a nice bunch of friends tht seems to brighten my days in NIE.

I miss my NUS days where everything is free and basically you can do wateva u wan....my great bunch of frens where the days jus went by though doing nothing and jux talking stuff that can never be considered as academic......

I kinda of miss ChristChurch too.....miss the morning breakfast with my fellow trainees....the joking sessions in the staff rooms....great bunch of teachers and also great bunch of students (that I always called idiots..hhaa....but it is not bcox some of you have my blog tht I write this) who never seems to make me think of laughing or crying.....

I went Pulau Ubin on Sunday.....it was kinda of a nice getaway from the hustle n bustle of the city life tht Singapore has given....cycling thru the greenery has always been relaxing and cooling. It allows me to think and reflect upon a lot of things as I cycle thru the greenery....I have taken some photos and will upload them soon...n ya 2/1 i noe i still owe all of u photos....will upload asap..haha

Ok...enough for myself....It seems tht nwadays my friends and students are facing relationship probs......wen i say relationship, it does not jus include bgr but also platonic relationship......let the old man giv u all some advice...

Those tht r facing bgr probs......in a relationship, there mux be a compromise btw 2 persons...2 diff persons come together with different personality...it is abt how to accommodate each other in ur life....relationship and love is not like a maths equation .......u r unable to factorize or simply.....if u realli wan to classify it under a subject...the closest is literature.....cox passion and characters are important in both....wen u noe tht there is no ending for the relationship, wat for hold on to it....do u think u will be happi...do u think the other party will be happi....u may claim to love ur partner...do u think he/she will be happi by u holding on to him......wat is bu gan xin? Is tht love? I dun think so......I always believe tht if the person i love can never be happi with me....i will let go and let her be with someone beta.....i think tht is a beta way to show ur love....

Platonic relationship is another prob...y do frens judge frens? I can never understand this mentality...wat makes u think tht ur moral values is the best? From wat point of view? Urs? it is a never ending question tht even philosophers hav problems answering......Frens are meant to be there to support and help. If you judge and discriminate...r u truly a fren? I always say to my frens...i will always support ur choice and decision, but dun regret....we can oni advice but u hav to make the decision....y mux we stifle our frens' life by imposing our supposedly 'good' moral values.......bloody moral entreprenuers......

My First School!!!!!

2008-05-08T17:38:00.002+08:00

Jux after writing about my mixed feelings about leaving the school. I received a piece of news that make me hav the mixed feelings again. Yes, I am posted back to my practicum school....I dunno why.......it makes me feel jittery and disappointed about coming back ba....I do have my apprehensions about the school but i jux hope that once again students will be my driving force who will support me through my years there....

till then.....

Mixed Feelings!!!!

2008-05-08T07:49:00.002+08:00

Today is the second last day of my practicum at Christchurch. Having mixed feelings about leaving this school. I had my apprehensions about this school when I got my posting frm MOE. Firstly, it is very far away frm my hse. Secondly, the school has some sort of a bad reputation. I dun mind tht the students are bad cox I think I am worse than them when I am young. Thirdly, i venturing into somewhere unknown with nobody i know.

Another thing is that I realli dunno why i come into teaching. Frm my experience of teaching tuition, I have totally detest teaching. But ya, I have signed the dotted line for the teaching award and in I came to NIE. It makes me feel even worse cox I never thought that wateva they teach is practical.

Den two months ago, I entered ChristChurch. That is where I gotten my first hand experience of teaching a class of 40 by myself. It was definitely intimidating but ya i survived through it. And I think I started to like teaching......it is funny but ya....the appreciation that you get from students are something that you are unable to get from any other jobs.....It give me a feeling that it is worth my time, voice and sweat to teach all of them.....I have not been a fantastic teacher but i think all of you have shown appreciation of what i have tried....Thank you....

I always call all my students "idiots" in front of my friends and colleagues. You all may think is bad but it is an affectionate term. I always say that idiot is one word you wll use on someone that is valued by you...haha....

I have a great bunch of trainee teachers that has been through thick and thin together with me. We bore the hellfire frm you noe hu and move on as the practicum goes. The teachers here are nice and friendly, making our days here easier to pass......My CTs are totally great and I have learnt a lot from everyone of them.

This is why I am leaving here with mixed feelings....Happy that I maybe leaving this school but sad because I have so many memorable memories of the days in ChristChurch.

Maybe like wat a lot of ppl say.....keep the memories for it will aged and nicer just like vintage wines and whisky.

Wish all CTs, colleagues and students the same, all the best and to quote Truman in The Truman Show....if i never see you again, Good Morning, Good Afternoon and Good Night

First Post!!

2008-05-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

This is my new blog. My friendster blog will be gone from this moment. So do keep a lookout for new updates ba.....till then